Sunday, January 24, 2010

Thoughts on Pregnancy

Throughout my life, I had the inclination that I would have a hard time getting pregnant, so when Billy and I decided it was time to try, I wasn’t surprised when there were issues. I said many times to Billy, my sister, Kelly, and to my mom that I just wanted to be able to get pregnant once so I could experience the feelings that go a long with pregnancy. Now that I am more than 7 months pregnant, I have to say I am very grateful for this opportunity to be expecting not only one, but two little boys. I know it won’t always be easy, I am sure it will be so hard sometimes, but I am so excited to be blessed with this opportunity to raise, teach and love our two boys. Over the past few weeks, the excitement is increasing because within the next two months, I will be a mom! As the time has been getting closer, there are a few things I have really enjoyed:

My favorite thing is to feel them move around inside me. For the past two weeks or so, when the boys move, you can see my stomach move too. It is fun to know where their heads are, when their elbows are poking me and when they are rolling over. Right now they are positioned with one on top of the other. I feel the top one all the time, and I wonder if that means he will be more active…we’ll see!

Another thing that amazes me is what our bodies do when we are pregnant. God really did create our bodies and he is our Eternal Father and created us to be able to have these types of experiences. I have no idea how people can question if there is a supreme being, with the miracle of child birth alone. Sure it is not always ideal and comfortable, but having babies grow in us is amazing.

I am also so grateful for medical technology today. I am honestly an ultimate high risk pregnancy patient. I have the odds stacked against me in having a good healthy pregnancy, with being a type one diabetic, having a thyroid issue, being pregnant with twins and then also having PCOS that makes it difficult to get pregnant. Honestly, before I got pregnant, I wondered if there is anything else that would make my pregnancy more difficult since I felt like I had a million issues…and of course there is. I am so blessed that my cervix is holding up strong and that there isn’t a huge chance for me to go into labor too early (yay!), my blood pressure has been excellent and that is wonderful because my chances are severely increased since I am in my first pregnancy and because I am pregnant with twins too. I also have been blessed to have an insulin pump so that I can control my blood sugars while pregnant. Over the almost 15 years I have been diabetic, I have heard horror stories of pregnancies of diabetic women and how difficult it is to be pregnant. I will admit, it isn’t always easy, but the pump really helps control it and my doctors have all been really happy and impressed with my control.

Since I am high risk, I go to the doctor all the time! I have been seeing three doctors once a month for the last 3-4 months, and it is increasing even more now that I am towards the end. The specialist I see measures the bones in both of the babies consistently to make sure both are growing at equal rates. I am grateful that they both have been and are about 3 pounds each! It is amazing that they can see how much blood is flowing across the uterus to the babies and all the other crazy things they tell me at each visit. Even 10 years ago technology wasn’t as advanced as it is today and I wouldn’t have made it to where I am without the medical technology.

I am excited that I only have 8 weeks (at the max) left of being pregnant, but I think I will miss feeling some of the feelings of being pregnant and the “glow” it gives me! I am grateful for the opportunity to be a mom and to experience the joys of pregnancy (I know this sounds crazy, but I never really got sick) because I know that not everyone is fortunate to have this opportunity.

Just a few thoughts I’ve been having…thought I would share!

6 comments:

Shelly said...

What a positive attitude! I really appreciated your thoughts today! I have a hard time being pregnant and it's good to be reminded what a blessing it really is. Good luck in the weeks to come!

Melonie said...

What awesome comments. YOu are going to want to come back and read that entry in 3 months. :D It reminded me of when Tommy and I went to see the Bodies Exhibit. You really see what amazing bodies we have and what a blessing they are, intricately put together and functioning. Sure love you!

Unknown said...

Feeling your baby/babies move is the best! I loved watching my stomach move, Mike and I would always laugh at the movements. Sometimes it really felt like I had an alien growing inside me.

Pregnancy is a miracle!

Julie said...

You are my Hero!!!

Canyonsrcool said...

I don't comment often when I check blogs, but I wanted to comment on this post for sure. Thanks for such wonderful thoughts! What great blessings Heavenly Father has given to us! I felt his love for you, your babies, and for me reading your post. Good luck in the coming weeks!

Nicoletta said...

That last comment from "Canyonsrcool" was actually from me! Oops, I was signed in under my hubbies account.